Helpless, but not hopeless

There are times when life becomes painful, seemingly beyond what you can bear.  Circumstances beyond your control insinuate themselves into your life and as your mind is reeling over your inability to fix things and your heart is churning with emotions that threaten to overwhelm, you wonder how you will make it through this.

This is a description of my life today.

I don’t think I have ever felt myself to be in such a helpless position as I am right now.   At times I have felt like all I can do it sit and stare at the wall.  Incapable of acting, incapable of thinking and often incapable of praying.  Sometimes there just aren’t words.

The tendency of my personality is to get lost in my own thoughts, a futile replaying of events, which always leads to despair.   I have felt myself drifting that way and I know I cannot go there.  I must be able to pray.  I must be able to get the ear of God.  But how?  How can I reach so high when I am so low?  So weak?  So helpless?

“Though the Lord is on high, yet He regards the lowly”  Psalm 138:6
“The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart” Psalm 34:18
“Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear Him, on those who hope in His mercy.”  Psalm 33:18

What a comfort this is to me!  What a source of hope!  I may be helpless, but I am not hopeless.  My God has not promised to make everything in my life the way I would like it to be, but He has promised that throughout the duration of it, He will be with Me.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”  2 Corinthians 12:9

Right now I am utterly and completely weak.  But He is always infinitely and eternally strong.  This is truth that brings rest to a weary soul.

“But the salvation of the righteous is from the Lord; He is their strength in the time of trouble.  And the Lord shall help them and deliver them; He shall deliver them from the wicked and save them, because they trust in Him.”  Psalm 37:39-40

The pain remains great, but His word brings hope that it will not always be like this.

6 thoughts on “Helpless, but not hopeless

  1. Estera Juravle September 12, 2009 / 3:59 pm

    Your posting made my eyes tear up. I have to admit that I share a lot of the feelings of helplessness you described. I assure you that God knows when to bring joy and comfort into your life again. All you have to do is continue to hold on to the peace Jesus offers as He holds your hand through this. Suffering always brings a gift.

    Estera.

  2. Mike September 12, 2009 / 9:42 pm

    A few days ago, you referred to a site you had found – riperalta.wordpress.com . He’s posted a song – you may have heard it. I’ve listened to it several times today. I couldn’t help but to think of you as I listened to again just now.

    There is a line in it that says:

    “Your who I hold on to.
    I know that you brought me through
    all the days of the cross, you knew
    that I’d need a savior.”

    Incredible words. Great song. You might listen to it if you haven’t already.

    Praying,

    Mike

  3. pttyann September 12, 2009 / 10:15 pm

    How very true this is!!!!!!!!! And to know that God will never leave us what great joy that brings,I hope you’ll start feeling better soon.

  4. Eirene September 13, 2009 / 8:48 pm

    Thanks to all of you for your kind words. It helps to know that someone cares.

    Estera – you said “suffering always brings a gift”. This is a hard truth. Yet an exquisitely beautiful one. Thank you for reminding me.

    Pttyann – thank you!

    Mike – I listened to that song last night. I had never heard it before and it blessed me greatly. Oddly enough, I heard it 2 times today while driving to and from church……..

  5. Estera Juravle September 13, 2009 / 10:08 pm

    You’re welcome!

    Be blessed.

  6. Tnelson September 30, 2009 / 7:41 pm

    Generally I do not post on blogs, but I would like to say that this post really forced me to do so, Excellent post!

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